I just feel great this morning. Each time I do stand up, thank god, I do improve. It's just slowly realizing things about yourself and what you're doing. This time I was actually very happy with the whole thing. It was my first performance where I wasn't holding my notes the whole time and I really felt comfortable with all the jokes. No joke sucked entirely, which felt really good cause I didn't get that - ah god I missed it- thing.
The biggest lesson from last night was that I really have to slow it down. That will help. I am a really fast talker as is- especially when I am excited and nervous, so that'll be a challenge. Also, this one part of a joke was missed cause I didn't articulate the word properly.
And though I normally don't feel comfortable discussing my relations on this site, I will say- to be honest about how lovely the last 24 hours have been, I have had some nice relations with a kind young fellow lately that were some lovely icing on the cake indeed.
(Put that icing on there bitches!)
It also felt great because a lot of my friends showed up and that is just so goddamned nice. If you have friend who is an actor or singer or something, if you go to their show, it means a lot to them. Plus positive feedback is so encouraging. It makes you feel like your efforts are actually worth something. Seriously. This blog is a little over a year old, but because of the format, it's the first time I've really had my writing read by a large audience, and it's the first time in my life I've had people, outside of a teacher's remarks on an essay, say that I am a good writer. "You're a good writer." That phrase has meant a lot to me this year and really helped me "find myself". Those kinds of remarks are like Fink Biscuits. Like I am a puppy and I am getting treats. Am I being too cheesy right now? Well up yours. That's right. Up. Yours. Ah jeez, didn't mean to get so vile right there with my filth mouth. But seriously. My mouth is filthy. You wouldn't believe the things I put in there. (pause) Sandwiches, sodas, pen caps, tempeh bacon. Hoo boy! It sure gets nuts in there! (wink wink)